Tuesday, December 28, 2010

F.E.A.R.

If you know me you know I don't have my drivers license and if you really know me you know it's cause it TERRIFIES me!

I've got my learners permit! Woo hoo Every time I'm driving I say “I don't like this” and I make lots of sound effects. Overall I think I've gotten better and am over coming this fear.

However the worst thing is my lack of transportation.... My parents are great and get me where I need to go and a lot of the time where I want to go. There are those time where friends step up and give me ride which is MUCH appreciated.

The thing I hate the most is the first time telling people I don't have mt drivers license. And the the questions begin. I feel judged and analyzed...it's very possible it's all in my head, but it is how I feel.
I especially hate telling guys this. I feel like it makes me less desirable (not that I'm the desirable to begin with). To me I seem like a freak or that there is something wrong with me... 22 and I don't drive? There most be something wrong, right?

IF I could change things I may have just gotten my drives license when I was 16. However there are experiences that would not have happened if I did have it. :)

In the end what is done is done.